Running out of control

"Surrender to me your heart and you will do things you have never dreamed!"
Running out of control!
"Your life is not your own, love."
Why is it when I look around I see everything that is wrong? Everyone who is doing the wrong thing? Everyone who is longing for justice? Everyone who is hurt and desperately wants to be healed?
"Seek me and you will find me."
"Pray like crazy and obey me when you don't want to!"
I am running out of control. I cant control anything! It keeps slipping through my finger tips.
"Your life is not your own."
I know it isn't.
I'm afraid.
I am excited.
I am sad.
I am a roller coaster.
I am healing.
I am growing.
I am screaming.
I am holding on until you bless me!


I know miracles happen. I have experienced it. I have experienced the beginning of healing! You are healer. You are love. You are protector. You are Sun. You are life. You are air. You are alpha and omega, beginning and the end. You are the ancient of days. Praise you Father for all you have done. You are endurance. You are Encouragement. You are peace. You are blessing. You are heaven. You are calm. You are laughter. You are friend. You are song. You are master. You are leader. You are SAVIOR.