Starting about 2 months ago I had no a Idea where I would be this year for school or if i would even be in school this semester. I had to transfer from Colorado College to....somewhere. I was at kamp aka Kanakuk Colorado now called Camp Kivu. I was on a day off and got the dreaded phone call saying i needed to transfer. I felt like my heart was breaking and everything brought me to tears. About three days later there was a calm and a peace that came over me that only could have been from God because my flesh wanted to freak out. Through out my last weeks at kamp I applied to three school, UCCS (in the springs), Univ. of Memphis, and I reluctantly applied to Fort Lewis College (durango) thanks for a few people encouraging me to do so. I was completely against the idea of Fort Lewis for no really good reason, i just didnt want to go there. So I got home from kamp and i was still not accepted by any schools and the clock was ticking...school started at UCCS in a week and at memphis and Ft. Lewis, 2 weeks. I had NO idea what to do. Still through this there was a peace about it. For some reason I started talking to the Ft. Lewis lacrosse coach...I played at CC and loved it and had decided I wasnt ready to give it up yet. Kelley, my new coach, sounded interested in me ..so I thought, "why not give it a shot? Maybe God has plans for me that I had not made for myself." So the clock was still ticking...6 days til school started...it started to look like University of Memphis was the only school left...and God knows as well as everyone else knew i did not want to go there...Kelley, from Ft. Lewis, kept pushing for my admission and then started talking SCHOLARSHIP MONEY!! those were two words that were music to my ears. Now we were talking...5 days til school started...Kelley really wanted me there and I was unofficially admitted....she would give me money to play. So i talked to dad, who still was not convinced by the information i was able to give him. God always has everything under control... that night a few friends came over and he started talking to them about what school i should go to. By the end of the conversation he was 95% convinced that Ft. Lewis was the best option. 4 days til school starts. I call Kelley to check on some last minute things and then tell her I am coming... God showed the then that he had plans for me i had never dreamed of and he was beginning to reveal them to me. ok..how am i getting to school? I decided then that if God could provide a way for me to get there, it was meant to happen. 2 days before school starts I arrive in Durango, Colorado. ALWAYS wanted to live here, never thought I would.
School starts and I feel completely overwhelmed...I have 5 hard classes, all of which I need to get into the major I "think" I want...don't know anyone...desperately want a good christian community and friends...etc. Funny how God works. I have learned that when you surrender your plans for God, he will bless you beyond what you can ever imagine, with things that blow your mind. The second day of school..one of my Kamp friends, Jordan, takes me to Connect (a campus ministry). it seemed to me that christians didn't really exist at many schools in CO...FALSE..I am surrounded by christians here..more than I ever imagined. I am even in class with some of them. Friends....It normally takes me time to make friends and feel comfortable with people...here the freshman on my lacrosse team have embraced me and made it a point to include me. What is even cooler is that I learned yesterday one of them is a christian...How COOL is that? God is so powerful!!! I have never played on a team with another christian...someone who can encourage me in the way that I want to go and I can be there for her when she needs it. Another way God has blessed me....I went to visit friends at CC and while I was there I realize that in as many ways CC was good for me and an incredible growing experience, but it was time for a change. There were people there, who instead of helping me excel, were causing me to stumble and dwell on things of the past. I miss my best friend, Jessica, she is such a blessing to me and I love that God has brought her into my life, but it was time to go. Today, life started to slow down...and a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Deep Sigh of relief.
Another thing God has been teaching me is that I can't rely on my friends and other people for the comfort I am seeking...It is between me and God. He is my Shepherd, my protector, healer, savior, comforter, provider. I didn't realize I had a problem doing this until my best friend, Erin, left this semester to be in El Salvador, with NO PHONE and really not much internet. She has been there for me ALWAYS, NO MATTER WHAT!! and now she isnt...and that's no Fault to her...Just how life goes.... It has turned out to be the biggest growing experience and blessing. God has show me that I can do it without everyone else there...I dont need to turn to a friend when I am in need (of course everyone does and needs to sometimes, but not all the time).
OK..so after writing all of this...what I want to say is...God has the power to do anything and will blow your mind when you least expect it and is there to comfort you when you are lost! this year is going to be phenomenal and I cant wait to share what he will continue to do in my life.
"The Peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:7
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